who the fuck is this moron, and why are you on this webpage?

firstly, rude. this is my website, and this page is for one of my classes. i could be asking you the same question, who tf invited you here?, huh, HUH??.. anyway, welcome to the shitty 2025 art exhibition of this dumbass rat and your local moron, me! :D

this site is currently a WIP and doesnt have much on it. if you have some how managed to find this page, uhhh,,, idk, leave?, or stay i dont really care. you can look at all the silly little pitures if you want :3

note:

because i am so good at web design and all that shit, this page works awfully on any smaller device. because of this i have added the ability to scroll on each text panel if it inevitably overflows.:- if you are using a even smaller device, like a phone. i recommend not even trying, or enabling desktop mode and straining your eyes.:- this entire note is rendered completely useless if you’re already such a device, but whatever.:-

if you struggle to read any of this, i am very sorry about that. my writing skills aren’t that great and the way that i write just kinda sucks. i hope for it to get better in the future, or just suck less.

this piece shows the faces of 2 stylized rats close together, facing opposite directions with radial symmetry. perhaps a dance?. a gentle duet of shapes that form their flat world. the usage of value to lift them up from the background, forming a clear visual hierarchy from the centre out. the piece is filled with organic shapes, as quoted by some rando on the internet that i don’t know at all: “SO MANY ORGANIC SHAPES” . thank you random internet person.:-

this piece was created using the *pen tool* in krita (its not called that but i cant be bothered googling it), but i bet you knew that already, because you’re so smart, aren’t you. i also bet you know that i sketched the piece before hand to properly lay things out. because you know oh so much i’m sure you can even explain how i used the bezier curve tool (i googled it) to draw all the lines and manually adjusted all of the nodes and curves after making the rough flat shapes filled with some colour. you may as well mention that i only drew on one side of the canvas and i just duplicated the layer, rotated it and merged it down to get radial the symmetry. because i don’t think there’s a way do it normally, or i’m just stupid, both have a 100% chance of being true. also using a layer to cover the entire piece in greyscale so i can make sure all the colours are readable and that the rats stand out, as they should,:- but i don’t get why you want me to explain what you already know.:-

i really just wanted to create something with rotational symmetry that has a cool design, and that was my main goal. did also want to express some emotion related to that, spiralling?, fear?. it doesn’t matter.:- although, one may say it means something, would one be correct?. its hard to say, bc i donno bro.. i could explain my connection to this animal, but then i would have to talk about FISH, and who i their right mind would ever do that, not me. i could talk about all this being very clearly furry related, and i am NOT DONING THAT, OH MY GODS. maybe some other time.:- this piece is is about my connection to this piece, circular, spiralling, and confusing. this. it represents me trying to explain this piece, which means something.:-

this piece is alright. i will most definitely continue this exploration into symmetries and probably not with my vector journey. vectors are nice, but do not easily contain the chaos of the brushstroke. even less than digital itself.

why can i only spiral downwards?, i want to spiral up. up, up and away.:-

one's eyes first being drawn to the warmth at the bottom of the piece, slowly being dragged to the centre by the texture formed by the uneasy lines, helped by its symmetrical and balanced nature (nothing -not nothing- is usually balanced). she sits all alone in this empty space. the only thing with her is some stupid light rudely interrupting the very important thing that she’s doing (how rude!). the contrast in value emphasizing the nothing surrounding her.:-

this work shows an anthro rat sitting in the centre of a dark room, with a bright light on her. biting herself and bleeding everywhere, staring far beyond the observer.:- its a purely digital piece, drawn with what i -for some reason- continue to believe are my own two hands. carving her out of the black background as if from stone, but nowhere near as cool.:-

this painting depicts a point in between ungracefully falling on onto the floor in a tangled mess, and mentally waking up after noticing all the blood that somehow got everywhere.:- this memory on the canvas, that's all i wanted, that was my goal. just to get this stupid thing out, an attempt to express.:- sometimes things just happen and you don't know why, or you do but would rather not say (this the former)

this piece will continue the chain of influence to my future artworks of being overly personal, and far too telling. which is way better than being within my mind i’d say.

it sucks and hurts, and that’s the point. i enjoyed this piece.:- ill put this stupid little painting next to my stupid little mirror, so when ever i see my stupid little face ill know that the now is merely stupid. and that is better than this, again and again, forever.

important note before reading this garbage: this is exactly what i submited for this artwork. id personally recommend not reading it

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my artwork (uhhhhhhh) is a painting of a sad lookin playground in a dark forest with a red slide in the center. my main elements and principles are form, emphasis and colour

How I used:

my painting was painted using paint (acrylic) and only a little bit of blood (not ethically sourced) [i couldnt get any blood :( , i lost it all]

i used minecraft to create a model of what i wanted the playground to look like, to help with perspective and to just understand it better.

i used my vad for the first concept ideas, the little thumbnail sketches, and storeing differnt peoples blood to test which is the best (taste and painting quality)

i use photography to get my own personal referance photos. using local environments to make it more personal :?

i used digital art to easily create a reference that i can follow, so i can easily make changes and position things

i used canva to create a {whiteboard?} of all the things ive done so i can easily refer back to thing that i have previously done. i also used canva to ‘edit’/add and reposition things to understand the colours, shapes, and forms that i want.

my art work was inspired by liking of gloomy environments and me wanting to pass this class

my art expresses my personal foggy connection to my childhood

one of my many many many goals is to get better with perspective and environment creation, this peice has [i hate all words, ever] works as a form of practice in these areas, i hope.

i forgor to add a rat >:C

My goal for the year is to include a rat in every personal art piece as a direct representation of myself, in relevant places/situations. I unfortunately didnt get to do this with this peice, i forgot it in the planning and ren out of time

I was challenged my my horrible time manandgen t [m]

I struggled with getting this done on time (in a reasonable time), tho i did barely manage. My weeks were filled with chaos (the annoying kind) and pain.. so i got an extension :3

I have never painted anything like this before in acrylic. My only other environments are more natural ranges. Ive never done geometric structures before. Im used to the jagged chaotic textures of the land. So uhhhhh,,, yeah.. Paintin harbd

This artwork is,, fine. It looks like and conveys what i want it to . There are afew things that i would want to do differently, mainly spending more time planing the layout of the final peice, and then spending more time testing and practicing with the paints, yeh.. Is painting, me think is cool :- enough.. :3

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please tell me you did not just read that,:- im so sorry. this was written at the beguining of the year. this year i've been learning how to write, or more to write at all. i never really knew how and i still dont, but i do think i've have gotten better.:- still sorry about that disgusting wall though

go fuck yourself

this is also something that i submitted at the beginning of this year, my fucking gods this is awful.

my artwork looks like a styalised rat sillowhet aaagagahghghhhhhhh :(

Literal process {

(generic narrator voice) As all good stories start, she did nothing and span around in her chair for hours

I start making little sketches of my side profile (i am rat :3)

I use one of the little doodles as a frame to stuff all my ideas into

After that i fuck around for awhile bc,,, idk man

I did a few doobles of the things in the thingi

I took one of the doobles to expand in to a digital sketch to propperaly lay out where the thingis will go

I then fucked around with the background for a while bc i completely forgor about that

Test some things, give birth (rat daughter), blablabla, yaknow

I start the final version begining with the basic outline and form

Then, i started adding things, and crying about it bc AAAGGHH

Luckly the next time i blinked my sore, dry eyes (ran out of tears) all the things were put in their place >:D “yey!”

I then, for some UNKNOWN reason, decided to continue the project and start adding the pen :3 , the pen-ing went quite smoothly. The first part sucked but thats fine (it was just very loooong ).

*about this point in time i ‘decided’ (it was more like fate) to do different parts in different lineart and shading styles,, idk chaos i guess :3 .

But the “dun dun” , i started doing Silver D: , basicly, it all went well untill i did her head,, i fuked that shi up fr :- After that horror i decided to leave the work alone and hope i didnt hate it as much in the morning,,, (it didnt work :[ )

I continued doing everything else on the page, starting with her body to hopefully make it match a little better (its fine ig ) . Everything else went quite shmoooothly :3c

Now im finished :3 , BUT WAIT, what is that i see? *gasp* AN EMPTY SPOT!!, what ever will i dooooo!!!

So anyway, i decied to spend far too much time creating a formular that is FUNDAMENTAL to the universe (multi) that that character next to it lives in (Faki?i) , and Hue too i guess., luckily it wont be a single use thing :>

Nowwwww its finished :D .. (do the generic narrator voice again) *cough* But all good things must come to an end, and this is where we end. Stuck inside a word document with ████ sitting behind her desk. Click clacking all the little keys on her keyboard :- she wonders why?, why did she just write all that?, why is she writing this, right now? I dont know, and i dont think she does either, but what i do know, is that :- if she stops :- i will die:-- My short life on this document has been filled with joy and laughter, but also misery and dispar, all the feeling shes been trying to express here. Its been nice to get to know her, seeing her work and process.. i,, *a small tear runs down his cheek* ████,,, i think im ready.. *snuffle* You can stop typing now.

....... why,, did i,, hm...

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my art work is made using ballpoint pen, paper, and pain (so much pain). i use many differnt tequnques to accieve my final piece. using digital art to get a good layout of what i want it to look like (them messing it up bc im an idiot), many different tequnics with the pen, spinni, kickflip, hatchshading, murder, and many more! >:D

Tecquneces :3 {

Spiral/squiggle shading

Fine and solid hatchshading

Soft shading

Shaky line-ing

Thick straight lines

Blood sacrifice

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Texture: i use different textures for certain things / areas to express some kind of felling, silver and the anthro rat (me :3 ) having a jagged line art and texture to feel less real, to express how i feel about myself, us, her. Ig. Some

Space & form: the entire environment that everything is in. Negative space used in the void and space

Patern: the background

Contrast: the contrast between the darkness of the void and space areas and the lightness of the main environment,

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my artwork was inspired by my willingness to do my schoolwork.

my artwork is meant to express the things i enjoy

This is {a silhouette} of a rat, whits is meant to reperstn meeee :3 . I blame fish,, i identify with rats bccc uhh, hm,, evil, plagued, existing without permission. Theyre also cools :3 :- i think my artwork is meant to express what its like to be me. oc the things i like, the things i do, and the things that are actively killing me

what i am

I tend to put/use tentacles in most of my personal artworks. I use them to uughgughughg represent AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA yaknow , like ummm, errrm, yeh,,, EVIL EVIL EVIL EVIL EVIL EVIL EVIL EVIL EVIL, its like, the evil, yeh, is there, im my brain, holding me, traping me, idk. I just call it the evil. :3

Them there human feelings {

Expression of self and identity, {trans flag, golden wattle, dyslexia symbol}

Joy from creation, {conlang flag, pack of crayons, Hue and Fish, Faki?i and Zizi,}

Joy from interests and learning, {TOH, toki pona, lemon demon, }

the unknown and the unknowable, {outside the window, the void and tentical things}

Fear/hiding, {the little rats hiding around, }

communication, reflection {talking with silver / therapy}

INFESTATION!!!!

Hmmm

uhhh, i think my goal as an artist would be to express myself and identity in general.

i think this piece does a good job at that, bc its literally me :3

Thingos ta doob differntly {

I would probibly better layout and test the thing i wanna add/do (like the mixed styles or whatever) , instead of it just being fate.

I should probiblyyy spend less time spinning around in my chair too, yeh,

I dont think i did a good job at initially figuring out what was going to be in the art piece, it would allow me to test more layoutts and and thingggss

Mmm words, yummy words

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i learnt different ways to shade, hatch and use a ballpoint pen for art

i learnt about what i actually like, kinda dumb, but i never really knew.

the final piece is pretty close to what i wanted. i did add a few extra thing to help fill in some space,, and a lot did get shifted around bc i cant scale for shit :3

i think that this piece will help me think more about adding small bits of meaning into future artworks, especially involving things to do with Meeeee!!! :3 {✨sparkles✨}

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no, you're eyes dont deceive you, that is what you think it is.

no, you're eyes dont deceive you, that is what you think it is.

i chose these works best represent me and how i want to represent myself. at this current time at least (more then than now).

this class included an entire section on photography and i decided to add none of that into this exhibition, bc i didnt really enjoy it. its not what i like doing.

a consistent goal throughout this year was to include something personal in each artwork. each of these selected pieces displaying some aspecdt of me, that's why i selected them, *snaps my fingers* you would know that if you were paying attention!.:-

i think i’ve achieved this goal.